im coming back!

Heii you know it’s been a very long time since im not longer writing anymore in this media. Well, been busy to write in the other and formal institution I guess. But since I woke up this morning the firs thing that popped into my mind was: hey gis, you have to update your blog. Hehe

Many superlicious thing happened in my days. And the most blissful one was I had a best weekend because I had a super quality time with dad. I enjoy my Saturday with him from a delicious malay food bistro until the authentic coffee shop. SuperJ

One I consider is, the treatment that he give to me has already changed. Maybe in the past time im just his silly little girl who knows nothing, but now he treats me like im one of his mature relative, we talk much about banking industry and the growth of it. Funny but exciting :p

But well, the blood still in one unity. I still can see his worry face when I told him all my trouble. I smell his glommy face when he knew that im crying. Well, father always become a father. No matter how complicated the situation. No matter how far the distance, no matter how tragic the story. Every father are the greatest heroes for the girls.

Thanks for the times dad, thanks for always protect me from far away, thanks for your sadness face, thanks for your laugh whe I tell a jokes, thanks for give me many happiness in your own unique way.

And I love my self, by loving you.. J

r i s k

i am not willing to risk what I already have for what I can have because sometimes what I can have differs from what I will have. No one has absolute control over an outcome of a situation. People gamble what they already possess in hopes of acquiring something greater.

I believe that sometimes we should take risks because it may work out in our favor. But occassionally, it seems to me that the reason why we dare to risk is because we are selfish and avaricious. We take for granted what we already have, convincing ourselves that somewhere out there is something far greater. We think we are so invincible that we have faith in the dream that there is no finish line. We presume things will always work out for the better. We think that all this good fortune will never end and we can keep running. We take risks hoping we gain something better but when it doesn`t work out, we then hope for a second chance to fix it. But sometimes it turns out that we can`t fix it.

We risk without taking precautions. Do I truly believe what I have is not good enough? What if I give to gain nothing? Can I fix it if I lose? Will I be able to cope no matter what the outcome is? But nobody ever takes these questions into consideration. They are focused on what they could have, imaginations already running wild with endless posibilities. But only one possibility can come true and sometimes what you can have differs from what you end up having.

the point is: Choose your risks wisely and be responsible to your self.

:)

When I look into your eyes the only word that comes to mind is love.
The beauty of your look, the warmth of your touch and the comfort in your voice tells me that I am cared for, your arms wrapped around me fill me with the assurance that I'm protected.
The idea that no matter how I look on a off day or when I wake up in the morning, you tell me how beautiful I am.
The butterflies you give me with every hugs, makes my heart beat faster as I don't want to move from against your scent.
The look in your eyes when you stare at me with no words spoken tells me everything I want to know.
Your heart speaks to me louder everyday, making sure I hear it's music of love.
You are the first thing I think of when I wake up when I should be thinking about work, you are last thing I think of before I go to bed when I should be thinking about what I have to do for the next day, and you are the only thing I dream of when I'm to tired to think.
You are always on my mind giving me the want to just smile.
You are the reason why I can say I'm happy, and be honest about it.
You give me more than I can ever express.
I thank you for allowing me in your heart, but most of all : you complete me :)

dear my mirror

Mirror mirror on the wall,
How many more times do I have to fall?
Why do I stare at myself, a mixture of hate and dread,
Just explain to me why nothing, is ever right in my head.
Mirror mirror shiney glass,
How much longer till this feeling will pass?
How much longer till I can become free,
When will I find that person locked away inside me?
Mirror mirror lie to me,
Show me what I want to see,
A perfect body, no scars in sight,
No red rimmed eyes from crying at night.
Mirror mirror on the floor,
What do I do if I can't take anymore?
What if the pills don't do what they should?
Will I be impriosioned, locked away for good?
Mirror mirror in my hand,
Show me a far off distant land,
Show me a place where dreams come true,
Where no one ever intentionally hurts you,
Mirror mirror in shattered bits,
How did it all come to this?
You're no use to me anymore,
A thousand pieces scattered across the floor.
Mirror mirror in my palm,
I found a use, I'll drag you across my arm,
Because now I've become to see,
That you, my mirror, are really my worst enemy

eventually

someday everyone will be wise in the future
everyone will be sensible and forward thinking
wear sensible shoes and act accordingly in the future
wise action according to everyone will be the act
of the future everyone will be futuristic someday
according to god according to everyone and their shoes
in the future everyone will be godless and free
act accordingly in the future or else
play accordions wisely in your godless future
in the future accordions will play themselves

act three in the future: there will be no accordions
everyone will get nostalgic for the accordion god
and act as if they were wise in the future
everyone will be according to god
in the future everyone will not act accordingly
wisdom is unholy in the future
to act accordingly is to stay out of trouble
in the future jails will be bigger and much better
everyone will need some punishment in the future
thinking of accordions will be a crime

lawrence welk is a revolutionary in the future
to act accordingly is to act with wisdom
everyone will act as one in the future
accordingly for everyone to act
in the future everyone will be discredited
everyone must act now to avoid the future
be wise and dont act accordingly
play accordions in the street the future cannot
wait for wisdom and forced accord
one chord might save the future